Worries of nonsences

I cann't sleep after listented to the decrision from doctor. I'm so worry about myself right now, the scarery of death. Basiclly, on my knowlege, I should die at this point, but I can't understant why does my father just annoy my fever. My fever right now is almost triple time more that normal. I'm so nervous and upset for myself and the way that my father treat me. When my father sat beside me, I felt so annoy because I dont think my illness is not that bad. But now he is going outside for hunting, Im so worry of getting dizzy or death and noone can help me out. Hic...hic... what should I do? Should I tell my father what I know and think? Im still thinking about that, but I won't give up and let myself be death.