If I was the boy

Father tells me that my face still is white, and after I ate the capsule, my faver still is not going down. I am shivering, lying in bed, I know that I am going to die very soon . The doctor said that my temperature was hundred and two, I remember that the french boy told me that people couldn't live with forty-four degree . No body care of me, father has just said he is going to hurt . But what else can I do? Lying in the bed and waitting for die! How many longer can I alive? I don't know, the french boy didn't tell me? After I die, where I am going ? I hope I can go to heaven, then I will see what is Angle lookes like. I will leave my father forever, he dosen't really care of me, so maybe is good to him. Time to die, bye bye everyone I love!